"Ever since I was a child I've fought against Crohn's, autoimmune disease, eating disorders & mental health problems: including depression, suicidal thoughts & low self-esteem
I escaped into alcohol, cigarettes & junk food, which led me to surgery & exhaustion. The devastating anaemia , degeneration of the joints & abdominal pain are just a few examples of my neglect. A few years ago, when I was teenager, the doctor told me that my test results were like those of a sixty-year-old
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My first breakthrough came via healthy eating, I lost 10 KG, my physical health improved, but my mental health continued to suffer. I didn’t believe in my abilities, I hated myself & there were moments when I didn’t want to live
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Yoga came into my life two years ago - I thought it was a good way to stretch my muscles after the hard physical exercises that I mistakenly thought I had to do to feel better. I won't lie, it wasn't an instant awakening or salvation. When my degeneration deepened & I could not exercise anymore, I chose yoga. There were ups & downs,I wasn't committed , I gave up for a while, then came back to it. I eventually started eating junk food again, and I felt the depression start to resurface
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I decided to stand again on my yoga mat, as if something in the back of my head told me that this is what I should do now. I began to read & really research yoga and slowly, with every practice I felt relief, like a balm for the soul 🙏
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I stopped treating yoga like a normal physical exercise, I didn’t care about standing on my head. And then suddenly yoga found me & gave me the most precious gift: peace of mind .
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My intestines have calmed down, degeneration disappeared, & my psyche fixes with each passing day. More important to me than the exercise is the moving meditation, pausing in every asana & savasana rather than pushing myself further. I listen to my body & its needs. Right now I am a strong person, I feel healthier & happier than ever 😀
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Through yoga I discovered a whole new path for my life, & what an incredible journey it is ❤
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