"I was born into a home of suffering. My Dad came from an abusive home & was alcoholic. My Mum had lost two babies before me (premature & cot death). I felt her heaviness. My Dad used to beat her & I’d try to stand in the way to protect her. Her brother was murdered
I tried as a child to lift their pain but their pain became mine
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When my Dad left, my Mum took all the past aggression out on me, with verbal abuse. I felt abandoned by my Dad. He didn’t pay child support & it was tough financially! Home was a very unhappy place. I didn’t feel safe, it became too much & I tried to take my life when I was at secondary school
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I left home at 16 to follow my dreams of becoming a singer & dancer, however I didn’t believe in myself & had a breakdown before a graduation performance. I didn’t have a chance of competing with others who believed in themselves in such a tough industry
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I became rebellious, hating myself & had a lot of adventures & was very self destructive
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At 25 I got married & had 2 children. I was unhappy but I wanted it to work. I lived for them & gave up wanting happiness for myself
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When I watched a good friend die from cancer I thought 'life’s too short' & after 12 years of marriage I decided it was time to break free; with a desire to live & inspire my children to the fullest lives
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I turned to Yoga! It helped me through my divorce, giving up my beautiful home & start again. There were moments when I lay on my mat, tears running down my cheeks, but I kept at it. Getting deeper into my practice. I got through it without turning to my past self destructive vices
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I still have trauma from my past & return to my mat for peace. It helps me connect with a purity that the trauma didn’t touch: a free, light, joyous spirit within. I am so grateful for the yoga teachers who helped save me & I became a teacher to help people as they helped me. At times I still have suicidal thoughts & depression & that is when I turn to my mat! It really is my protection. Yoga saves me, every day! It’s my therapy, my stability. My place to return to when I need to find peace. 🙏
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