“I felt so lost & alone, it’s a strange feeling when you have so many family & friends around you but still feel so alone
I was a very angry teenager, now I know that this was my defence mechanism but then, I was totally unaware. It was my way of protecting myself from being hurt. After behaving in this way for a long time it became a habit, a pattern that became part of my every day life
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I thought that I was destined to be unhappy & every day I went through the motions, pretending that I was fine when inside I was in so much pain. At the time I was training to be an accountant & had a really good job up in London, but I was so terribly unhappy & unsatisfied
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One morning as I awoke a random thought came to me about trying yoga. This was mid 90’s & at that time yoga wasn’t at all popular. I remember telling my sister & she told me to stay away as it was a cult
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This always makes me giggle now. I decided that I had to try it, the pull was so strong I just had to find a class. My first class was amazing & I fell in love with it instantly. My teacher was a softly spoken lady with a beautiful foreign & melodic accent & for the first time in a long time I felt peace within. I knew deep in my soul that this was a calling for me to be healed through yoga
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One of the hardest things for me was to learn to relax. I’d spent so many years on the defence with my guard up ready to attack, relaxing was a real challenge. Once I yielded, my inner self told me that I had to teach, but I was so low on self esteem & confidence this seemed an impossible goal
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After receiving the same leaflet from 3 different places I decided to go for it. I signed up for the training & quit my job & took on my first class. I was terrified, but, felt the fear & did it anyway. I felt like I was finally doing what I was born to do
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I can honestly say that I would be a completely different person today if i hadn’t chosen yoga. I was on self destruct & yoga totally transformed me, my life & my mindset. Now I'm blessed that I can show others the way to peace ❤”
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