"One evening in November 2007, I found myself lying on the floor of my apartment sobbing. I wasnât sure how Iâd gotten there"
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. "I was having what I labelled, âa nervous breakdown.â What I know now is that I was experiencing acute post-traumatic stress disorder & immense grief
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From an early age, I was a quiet, sensitive, & intuitive child. In middle school, I developed both scoliosis & clinical depression
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By college, I couldnât ignore the pain & intensity anymore. I began meditating & practicing yoga at my universityâs gym. I hated every moment of my first class. But I began a practice nonetheless
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I also discovered activism, which gave my heartbreak an outlet. After I graduated college, I put all of my belongings into a storage unit & headed to the logging blockade at Grassy Narrows First Nation in Ontario
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A group of us spent the summer supporting the blockade & getting to know the community as we witnessed their frontline fight for environmental justice & Indigenous sovereignty
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After getting arrested for blocking a logging road, I was devastated to leave
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Over the next year, things began to unravel, physically & emotionally, while my activism only escalated. Weeks after another intense arrest, I found myself on the floor weeping, convinced that I was going crazy
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Shortly after, I started doing yoga regularly. I began taking diligent care of myself, diving deep into meditation & spiritual practice. I met my teachers & began navigating my grief
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Yoga taught me that there is no destination to healing. It is forever a practice and a process. But in the midst of struggle & suffering, we can develop compassion & wisdom and a felt sense of well-being
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Ultimately, I began mentoring healers & activists in self-care, knitting together the spiritual and political realms of my life that had felt estranged for so long
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For me, the poses are a bonus. What yoga gives me is the perspective & framework to be in the world with compassionate presence
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Itâs obvious that yoga saved my life, & Iâm proud that Iâm able to share what itâs taught me so that it can change othersâ lives too
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