"I'll never forget the first time I had an emotional response in yoga. It was one of the very first classes I ever took that I was fully present for. I found myself connected to my soul for the first time, in a hip opener, in treatment for my alcoholism in April of 2014"
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"It was such a vulnerable feeling, tears pouring down my cheeks, yet inside of this sadness was so much hope and a small piece of love and empathy I finally had for my younger self
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The young girl that lived her life feeling less than, abandoned by my father, not ever feeling loved by my mother. And surviving horrible abuse by the hands of a person that said they loved me. I didn't know love, or trust at all. I was holding so much trauma inside of every nook and space of my mind and body
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In these moments we connect to love in every shape and meaning of the word
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Spirit, self, life. Love is all around and inside of us, we just have to be willing to shed parts of ourselves and open up to feel it. To see it, and give it back. We have to believe we deserve it. Numbing my way through most of my adulthood finally brought me to surrendering that April. Surrendering my will and finding the tools and people to help me learn to love myself whole again
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I dove into meditation and yoga immediately and almost four years later I can truly say: YOGA saved my life
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I''ve found passion, humility, strength, and most importantly myself. I've been able to create a healthy balance in my life and at 38 years old I can finally look in the mirror and love the person I see. It isn't always easy, but it is always worth it
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Namaste ❤🙏 Amy "
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